Once a year or so I say something really embarrassing that I will remember forever with a sick feeling in my gut. The memory of this very very trivial and forgettable utterance will play again and again. I had a job interview via Skype this morning and said things I wish I hadn’t. I hate remembering the way the interviewer hesitated and said “close enough” when I tried to show that I had done my research.
I know the interviewer will not remember. Most people cringe and then stop thinking about it after a day or a week. But I won’t; the memory will just replay.
Edit: I am invited to do a second interview. The cringeworthy interviews always mean second interview/job offer. A reminder that I am not as deplorable as I think I am.